swT or not Swt?

sweet ass...I thought I could have my own life but NO....I've to life someone else's life with my life...While every one else thought I am such a bitch, one who is not obedient, one who is such a snob....Fuck! they don't even understand what's happening...I don't need other's sympathy, I can live my own life in my way of course but I am willing to sacrifice mine for my sis you know?...Writing this piece of post isn't to tell da whole world how much I am suffering it's just a way for me to release my anger, my pressure, my feelings...If not I would really go crazy..It's because that nobody else can see this except for me...Haha...a secure diary where no one else can find, can read and know my secrets...1st of all of da whole world only May May zhai, Ah Jun , Hao Hao and Petra knew what is going on..what's really going on...They know how much pressure I have and they also felt the same way...but being the eldest I am da ONE who is going to take it da most...I have huge responsibilities to keep my family together this includes sacrificing my dreams and ambitions....trying to sacrifice others' dreams and ambition...I try the help them fulfill it...May wants to be an architecture/interior designer, Martha wants to be an arts student majoring in music, Hao hao wants to be a Doctor, well some kind of professional with a smart look, Petra wants to be a nurse.....Can others get approval of these jobs before someone takes the job of our parents' company?NO!! I was advised to choose this fking subject because I need to keep my father, my future company, my family.....Trying to live to their expectations I felt so deprived, so I went on to love myself and my sis....trying to give the best to them,trying to keep them in the world of no worries and burden....Fuck life!! I hate mine but I do love some parts of it....At least I gained some freedom and some relaxation in life while in melbourne...Still can't open my doors of past and secrets to anyone even steph...I can't even open it to myself in this blog who could only be read by me...who can anyone else know what's happening and help me?


I guess this is the end for now, I am a bit tired but at least May may zhai supported me a bit...hehe...It really helped me alot...



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Age: 27

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